and when i see you, i really see you upside down

A couple of pictures collected over the days.
I am so mesmerized by monotones.















I hate the fact that its so hard to trust you. The fact that you were never honest, the fact that i actually thought i knew you. The fact that if anyone said anything, without hesitation i'd point my gun at you. You're reserved, you don't say anything to anyone. You think its okay to keep things to yourself. Well you can if you're dating yourself that is. You ruin all ties you have with everyone and the least you could do i fix them. If you don't need anyone of us, just walk away, you won't be worth keeping then.

If you ever read this, i'm trying my best to see the greater good in you so please, don't disappoint me. If you haven't already woken up from you're long slumber, nows the time to actually change and do something to redeem yourself. All the times i was there before obviously didn't mean anything to you, everything i've ever strained myself to do has come to an utmost failure. Maybe i'm a tiny fragment in your life you're so accustomed to switching would be too laborious. I just can't see the bad in someone, they always say there's some good left. That of which i am starting to doubt, alot. Its been a month and trusting you i have to admit has gotten slightly easier. I try to take your word for everything because after all, i am trying to us a shot. You did something so downright stupid it eliminated friendships people would die to have. You're unappreciative, all you care about is yourself. Up to this moment, whatever you've done overshadows every single thing you've ever said and done for me. You fight everything with the rarional you. Life isn't like that. I know i have no ground to judge on but i surely know that life's a milkshake. I'm not trying to make you a priest, shit no, i just want you to be someone everyone feels trustworthy with. I don't want to feel like rambo everytime i feel you're doing something behind my back. I am gonna sound so immensely high of myself but i've always stood by you. Through all bad and good. Maybe you've forgotten, its time you do something to make yourself remember everything everyone has ever done for you. I'm sorry if this hurts.
Stop disappointing yourself.
Stop disappointing everyone.
Stop disappointing me.
Things may not work out for us. At the very least, i'd like to know that i did date someone with a heart.